Mornings

I'm falling in love with mornings. I was never a fan of the morning but this morning as I sit here with my laptop, the most recent John Mayer cd playing, and the house completely still (for the time being at least) I am re-considering the general feeling I had about morning.

Speaking of feeling...I am a person driven by my feelings. I don't like how I feel in Petco so I go to PetSmart. Now that I'm admitting that it makes me sound slightly crazy that I let my feelings dictate which stores I frequent. Honestly, I let my feelings dictate almost everything I do. But what happens when I don't "feel" like doing what I should do? Who ultimately decides what I should do? Do I decide that? Does someone else? I love that I am passionate about things and that I follow my heart. But I have a difficult time doing things I don't feel like doing. That's not to imply that I am a lazy a person, I just don't have motivation to do things unless I'm passionate about them. I'm envious of people who can easily do things they don't feel like doing. I'm rambling and it's early so the overall flow and message of this post are probably being thrown by the way side.

John Mayer is a musical genius and his new cd is one my favorite things of 2010. I'm complying a list: "Favorite Things: 2010" since my favorite things are subject to change year to year. Okay, I know you're itching to know what's made my list thus far. I'll self disclose some of the list, the rest of the list can't be revealed until December 2010 when it's completed.

Favorite Things: 2010 (draft)

1. John Mayer Battle Studies album (specifically, "Half of My Heart" and "Edge of Desire"

2. Wednesday night soccer

3. Spring/summer softball

4. Iced soy chai teas

5. All the applications for my phone (specifically the Menstrual Calendar, Starbucks Locator, and Grocery List applications. How can you not love a reminder telling you when you are going to ovulate? A map constantly updating telling me where the nearest Starbucks is -- YES PLEASE! My love of the grocery list application could go without explanation, two of my favorite things: lists and food)

6. Fat Lorenzo's pizza

7. My yellow apron

8. Hosting a spring tea party with kindergartners

Note: my favorite things of 2010 are listed in no particular order and are subject to change.

"I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let them go. Things go wrong so you appreciate them when they're right. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together" --Unknown

Awesome

Today at work while I was working on an art project with some of the kids one of the kindergarten girls said, "Jenna is awesome at crafts". A little 7 year old boy said, "Yeah, Jenna is just awesome". Work always makes me feel better.

Easter Drama

"You looked better as a blonde. Most guys like blonde hair." -- my cousin Josh

I had an emotional Easter to say the least. The icing on the cake was a conversation my cousin Josh and I had with my Mom.

A chai tea and the sunshine is making things better. I'm in repair, I'm figuring it out. My family is crazy but they're mine. No matter what is said or done I love my family with all my heart. No matter what I'm going to stand by my family.

Happy Easter! Eat a peep, because they're amazing :)

Good morning to my two followers! haha I'm not sure if you know this, but I'm kind of a big deal around here! I'm working a 48 hour shift this weekend. There is a new client here this weekend and she is adorable. Possibly the cutest 11 year old Indian girl I've ever seen. She's polite, sweet, and very attentive to everything I do.

This morning I woke up early to make apple turnovers (from scratch of course) and my new client woke up early with me. She helped me make the turnovers from start to finish. While we were filling the pastry dough with apples I realized something...I want this. No, not the apple pastry (I'm resisting and drinking a protein shake) I want to be a Mom. I want to make breakfast on Saturday mornings with my daughter/son.

I love what I do working with the school district and social services but it's taking my Mom instincts for a loop. A kindergarten student asked me, "Who's mom are you?". The thought of planning, conceiving, and being pregnant is actually interesting to me! Needless to say I'm scared out of my mind. It's really strange to be at a place where I'm interested in and sincerely want to start a family. Obviously, other things need to be in order first but at least my maternal desire is going strong!